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released February 2, 2018

thank you to our friends, family, and supporters
for helping us to make this record possible, and
for your continuous encouragement these past
10 years. we love you not kidding

all songs written by Jessi & Jeremy Brock

recorded at the music box studios
downtown fullerton, california
summer, 2016

produced & mixed by Jonathan O'Brien

mastered by Michael Fossenkemper
at TurtleTone Studios in NYC


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Track Name: Smokestacks
smokestacks, not a cloud in the sky
feel like i've been running for miles
but i haven't even left my bed
speak quickly, my mind is like the low tide
for a moment, what's below will rise
but soon be hidden again
this is a mess
do you think my eyes
can see the rain
before it falls?
do you think my ears
can hear the rain
before it falls?
shipwrecked, days have gone by
we call for rescue but still no reply
are we alone?
flashback, it's just another bad day
let's go to bed now
in the morning i'll wake
with the sun on my face
this is our chance
Track Name: Heartbeat
your heart is a great big waterfall
i'm standing at the bottom feeling really small
'cause i know what i want but i don't want to be a fool
and i know what i got but all i really want is you
i can feel your heart beating in the dark
i can hear your heart beating in the dark
i love the sound of your heartbeat
Track Name: Fallen
static, wrapped up in a blanket
take me to the place where flowers bloom at night
you said we cannot leave this island
and though we cannot fly i know we will be free
feel my, feel my chest
feel it rise and fall
like you never left
feel my, feel my hands
feel them rise and fall
like a marionette
quickly, we don't have much longer
swallowed in this brilliance
our passion has arrived
my heart is filled with warmth and silence
my eyes look toward the sky
and the edges become blurred
please let me keep
keep this memory
just this one
Track Name: Dreaming
i called you on the phone last night
you said you were so glad to hear from me
i finally got the courage to ask you out
and as we went to sleep
i was thinking could this be?
baby, what are you dreaming?
you picked me up at half past seven
i thought you were such a gentleman
but on the drive home i drifted off to sleep
i couldn't help it, i heard you singing
baby, what are you dreaming?
Track Name: I Hope Someone Up There Loves Me
i'm stuck in a nightmare
i'm staring at a mirror
there must be a reason i'm still here
well i hope someone up there loves me
i can't sleep alone
these demons want my soul
i just keep on thinking
about what's right and wrong
well i hope someone up there loves me
'cause i would love to stay
alive, tonight
the voices in my head are so indifferent
the only thing i'm afraid of is non-existence
green eyed monster
i don't want to sleep anymore
well i hope someone up there loves me
'cause i would love to stay
alive, tonight
i just want to stay alive
Track Name: Constellations
the wind in the palm trees
and the smell of the beach
the sand colored houses
on every street
this place is a resort
of the last kind
with actors abound
rehearsing their lines
when was the last time
you looked up at the sky?
polluted with light
no constellations here
and what ever happened
to all those late nights?
we stared at the stars
and dreamt of the future
i'm so disappointed
my friends are not my friends
at one point i loved you
but now you're just like them
perpetual sadness
covered up with green
and all of the children
will never be the same
Track Name: Splendid Eyes
it comes down to this task
of keeping my eyes open
don't want to take the chance
the moment might pass
skip to the part
the one that i like
the part where he says
he's waiting for the sun to shine
'cause i want a piece
of this paradise
coffee has been cold
for fifteen miles
and you've been asleep
for a little while
this road is a hard one
and we've not had much rest
nothing but dust and sun
but we're not stopping yet
'cause i want a piece
of this paradise
under the spell
of your splendid eyes
Track Name: Too Far Gone
i got lost
can't be found
running these wheels
into the ground
skipping town
headed east
wandering around
finding my way
and keeping my head held high
too far gone
ain't got a home no more
i guess i'll just keep driving
until the sun comes
Track Name: Dreamcatcher
did i wake you, dear?
a nightmare so long
but i felt you near
now i know it's gone
it's gone
i felt my fears
just slip away
there is nothing here
just you and me
come now, just rest
your head
on my shoulder
these things
you see
are just a dream now
it's over